February 04, 2014

One year later

So, you're cool if I only post once a year, aren't you? (echo... echo... echo...) I have abandoned my blog, not for lack of interest but lack of time. Mental disorganization plays a big role, too. There are so many thoughts in my head competing to be priority #1 that I can scarcely express myself at times. Becoming a mom has messed with my brain.


Don't get me wrong, I don't regret motherhood at all. I just miss my mind. At least it served me well while I had it. I think it did, anyway. I don't really know. I forget.


Right now it's kindergarten registration time. That's tougher than it sounds. I am juggling multiple contingency plans as I try to navigate through the catch-22s of poorly aligned education and daycare systems. Someday Kai will laugh at me when he hears how much I stressed out over arranging a junior kindergarten placement. He'll have no idea unless he becomes a parent -- nay, a mom, which isn't likely.


I need a break, a massage, a vacation, a stiff drink, a whole whack of me-time. I won't get most of those things. Understand this, though: I wouldn't trade parenthood for anything.